Gotta narrow it down; Hippo much?

its hard to know u work so hard to try and help those close to u but at the same time it leads to ur downfall. as one person told me, i can't help everyone...and i know i can't but i can't help but get myself into situations. i just can't help it. sometimes i think i know what im doing or what needs to be done, but right after its happened, i realize, shit. i should've done that. or crap. that could've gone better. w/e theres nothing i can do for it now except apologize and try to make things better. i've been saying that i'm changing myself for the better. and in subtle cases, i have...but it seems to create more problems...well...situations. and im not regretting anything its just proves i still need to do some more work.
its hard to try to do everything u can so that certain people succeed but feel like you're not getting as much support in return..that doesn't hinder u're want for them to succeed but it would sure help you through the tough times when you want to just give up.
its hard to give support when u're in doubt of accomplishing things yourself, but u give support anyway to be strong for that person and to hide your self doubt.
sometimes too much is too little, in several aspects. one being you try too much and its only really helping a little. or yo give too much and receive too little. or you worry too much and accomplish little. or you offer yourself to do things too much and the joy in helping goes down...or is, well, too little. even if this isn't really the case(s), it can feel that way at times. and all you [can] do is hope, maybe it doesn't seem to mean a lot now, but maybe in the future everything will fall into place.